Giving God the Goods

Ok so I haven't blogged in awhile. As well as that I haven't blogged any deep especially stuff that's entirely about me so this could be tough.

Anyway, I was in small group a few weeks ago and we were talking about marriage and love. One thing that our book had suggested was that this was something you needed to give fully to God. So I tried it.

Except I didn't give it fully to God. I held onto the love part. I didn't want God to mess up my feelings and make me fall out of love or into it either.

So I held onto that for a few more weeks until this week I came to a point of desperation. Don't we always? A point were there was no other way out except to be in pain. Which no one wants to go through. So I guess I decided that God could do a better job.

So I've decided to give it all to God. He has control over whether I marry or if I live my life fully serving Him alone.

It's a weird revelation but completely comforting. I love to think that God is control, that He sees the bigger picture and knows how the decisions can make my life work better for Him and for me.

Anyway, that was my week with all the boring life edited out.
Hope you are all well.
xo.